Sober

I've been fighting off wars out here on my own I can't sit still it's out of my control Dreaming wide awake and watching days pass by I know I gotta stop but I just don't know why Losing my faith and I don't know what I've done The ball is in my court but it's a loaded gun Heading my way and I can feel it getting closer Cause I'm so damn high that I just can't stop now And if I fall theres no choice I've gotta hit the ground Being this way has got me so much older I kind of wish I was sober Everything is static these emotions getting bolder They're climbing all around me putting weight upon my shoulders And we've fallen out of love but I still wish I could hold her So I've gotta burn it down Sit and watch it smoulder But I've can't slow down because I know it's wrong But when I'm out of it the world is never quite this fun I'm a danger to myself and I can feel it getting colder I kinda wish I was sober So sit and watch me fall apart We were broken from the start Dream collapse and move on back And see me have another heart attack So sit and watch me fall apart We were broken from the start Dream collapse and move on back And see me have another heart attack Being this way has got me so much older I just wish that I was sober We've fallen out of love but I still wish I could hold her I just wish that I was sober I've gotta burn it down I've gotta sit and watch it smoulder I just wish that I was sober I think it's getting colder now I think it's getting colder I just wish that I was sober But I think it's almost over now I'm losing focus I'm trying to come back but it has got me feeling hopeless Beauty is never going to come for this beholder Because I don't think that I'll ever be sober