After Hours

Yeah I really want my momma Yes I'm thankful for all the other But the one I share wit my brother Still wouldn't trade her for nothing And I really want my father The one I share wit my sister Living dangerously left yo kids home Hope you're wondering how your kids grow Is it wrong for me to think bout her She prolly didn't want to but she gave her child up Then you an't come see your children Now I'm wondering how are you living I know you had a past ain't nothing different And I'm older and I promise I forgive you Not having you ain't know how to show my all feelings Years keep going by and I noticed I feel the distance I know you said that all I gotta do is pick up da phone And then you'll pick me up and take me back to ya home But if you reached out to me I'd be way more willing to go It's crazy you came to graduation With no money to put towards college maybe God is showing me that he's making ways and Everybody's parents ain't always gone save they baby Everything you've done when I needed change I appreciate it Will not let unfortunate situation to deviate me I may not be perfect but lessons I learn with keep me pacing Now it all feels weird cause I'll pick up a blunt just to feel safer Don't feel bad cause with all the things it had made me greater Fought through all the times when I cried when I had hear'd your name up You can tell me one thing that'll probably would just ease the pain up if you gave me then why didn't you come to get me later Late night thought keep on lurking Every one they got me hurting Never said that I hate you even if you deserved it I feel like I was cursed damn But I'm a better person And with every that happened I just wanted a family Yeah I really want my momma Yes I'm thankful for all the other But the one I share wit my brother Still wouldn't trade her for nothing And I really want my father The one I share wit my sister Living dangerously left yo kids home Hope you're wondering how your kids grow Is it wrong for me to think about him too I be thinking bout the dude when I'm sitting in da booth He told me when I spit I better go spit the truth And he also be rapping man I gotta surpass him You thought me what to do but taught me in da wrong way Think about your daughter and how she always feel lonely I'm trying to help raise her and talk to her when I'm home G But there's a spot I can't fill up inside her heart man One day she asked me like "do they really want me" Talking bout you and her mom she like "what yall doing" This girl was like only nine you see how that hurt me I don't know what to say you treat us like unimportants But you got on some fresh new Jordan's Taking care of other kids saying "gotta get things all sorted" Hearing the same old story's kinda is getting annoying Love you as a father don't think I'm liking you as a Person Neither one of you can say that you were really here Not talking bout no money unless it was towards my whole career Haven't seen a thing man what about when my mentals veered Off to the left and I almost died you were never near We got a few times that we shared 20 days 20 years All the numbers can't compare it seems like you never cared But forget we are here and I made it I make it clear Say deuces to all da peers and the people who aren't here Late night thought keep on lurking Every one it got me hurting Never said that I hate you even when you deserved it I feel like that I was cursed damn But I'm a better person And with every that happened I just wanted a family Yeah I really want my momma Yes I'm thankful for all the other But the one I share wit my brother Still wouldn't trade her for nothing And I really want my father The one I share wit my sister Living dangerously left yo kids home Hope you're wondering how your kids grow Yeah my life was miserable We all need healing growth I'm venting so here we go I think that you should know I can't get you off of my mind I can't get you off of my mind I think about you all the time I think about you all the time