Flashbacks

I had a flashback so I sit and think more Realized that I've met funny people Not the ones when you meeting making cold joke But the ones who got fangs and they don't show They acting calm den one dey they go loco Ask em do the understand they say un poco Now your sitting by yourself when you go home Then depression pull up on you by the boat load Man who's this guy making songs but he grow slow Keeping on telling us these things like we don't know He found his purpose not the path so he don't go To the right place but that's just what he thinks tho The problem is that he never made it to the door Every time he get close he gets backed up more Cause his doubts and mind make him unsure So he don't get help he just drifting of course Yeah I gotta change my mindset Matter of fact I gotta go change my climate Cause the people that you hang around Determine who you'll be it's like a sickness you ain't shaking off My momma said keep on trying Cause My legacy never dying I got this gift that God I will peak whenever the times set Who are you to tell me what I can and cannot be I was made but one and to him I will live faithfully I am not perfect but one day I can go live with heem Lol he'll help me so I can finally be free Looking at my past you prolly think I couldn't do this thing Every time there's something good there's something else that's keeping me From showing a smile Sometimes I think it's make believe I don't understand why it happens but I'll just wait and see I told lil mama that I really need some more space No way don't listen to whatever them girls say Most times they saying things that silly Most times the ugly spirits come when the faces are pretty Now I'm steadily staying busy Moving around da city If that lady really want me then she is gone show me Then baby can come and get me To my ex girl I gotta get away from you Cause you're making it difficult How did I make it miserable When you said your lies I said "here we go" But ya momma was always there for me I noticed that woman cared for me It's crazy cause what she said to me Apologized cause you weren't there for me Always passing a judgment When in reality you the one that we should be judging We all know you're fake that's the end of the discussion What I want from you really nothing To the new one I can't be yo man cause I'm heartless I think I'm living in some darkness You set yourself part from me cause I'm from da partments I had a flashback so I sit and think more All the times that I kept letting people Run my life while they laughing making cold jokes Now Dey gone and I'm happy I can go home With a smile cause I'm free and I'm so calm Got this cold front but I'm standing still warm I realized I'm a king now I grow more Tryna work and get dis money by da boat load I gotta fly so I get high and then soar Write my own songs I don't need a pen ghost Hop on the ride and I'll show you where I been tho But do not cry when I finish saying oh no They asking me what I'm in it for It's crazy how you still don't know I thank the lord cause I'm still living reaching my goals