Procrastinate?

Oh my goodness, could this be a mistake? My alarms going off just a few hours late, and I'm Losing some confidence or that's just what it seems It might just be a consequence for having big dreams Or maybe cuz five years went by since I wrote this My last three grandparents died since I chose this But today I woke with a little more drive I recognize that my time is every second I'm alive And for that imma strive Know that I will finish with a dream to inspire, that won't ever diminish My sis hit me up and said When you gonna visit? Man I could of been there now if I didn't try to spit this I woke up late on a Monday, it's time I learned my lesson The essence of adolescence left my body now I'm stressin I'm pressin against the cycle I can't escape Another day by where I procrastinate Could this be a mistake? My alarms going off just a few hours late, and I'm Losing some confidence or that's just what it seems It might just be a consequence for having big dreams I sit in my room, consumed, tryna exhume These anxieties inside of me have got me feeling DOOMED I snap out of it, I'm clearly not proud of it The visions getting clearer and I never should have doubted it I'm a soft spoken, broken, but now woken You know I'm not jokin, I should really stop smokin Clearly chosen but frozen in my emotions I go by Caffeinate but cannot stop dozin Yup, ayy