Going Through the Motions

Friday 13th with a sunshine in the morning Momma's crying in the kitchen cuz today I'm going Imma leave this day in a country where im foreign Carving through my fate with no plans of returning Cereal for breakfast and a cup of sweet coffee Tryna say goodbye to my sweet beloved mommy Know is hard for both so I try to hug her softly Broke two hearts to pieces when I left the upper lobby Take a step in my mind Emotions all the time all the time Am feeling real high real high Always on the grind on the grind Now-now-now Take a step in my mind Emotions all the time all the time Am feeling real high real high Always on the grind on the grind The sound of keys in the door At Quarter to 4 Enough to interrupt any sleepy snore Man, I'm so sure I saw my mother push my father to the floor No more And then she swore I swear I'll never be the same But I love my father all the same Strange Deranged games Throwing dirt on my brother's name Seeing him twist and turn in pain As the wicked spells return again Damn Crisis talks in the family room As the bride and groom doom The honeymoon ended too soon The open wound exhumes lies and deceit But neither will accept defeat As the rug is lifted from their feet Damn I'm asked to take sides As my sisters fight, I can see the tears in their eyes Crazy accusations and wild interrogations More bitter pills to take than AIDS patients Take a step in my mind Emotions all the time all the time Am feeling real high real high Always on the grind on the grind Now-now-now Take a step in my mind Emotions all the time all the time Am feeling real high real high Always on the grind on the grind As a kid, I couldn't sleep My thoughts were forever deep Craved affection Wanted attention Feared Rejection Dreamt of perfection On the road to success U attract what you expect Reflect what you desire Become what you respect Mirror what you want to admire Life was tough Things got rough There were days it seemed like a haze Through it all, I always stand tall Cos giving up was never an option What U know about waking up feeling like this What U know about living a life like this Take a step in my mind Emotions all the time all the time Am feeling real high real high Always on the grind on the grind Now-now-now Take a step in my mind Emotions all the time all the time Am feeling real high real high Always on the grind on the grind Friday 13th with a sunshine in the morning