Something Else

Sitting in my bedroom laying in the dark with the nightlight on Sinking into my head, feeling so small feeling so alone I don't wanna bother anyone I don't wanna burden them with all my thoughts it's just not fair, I'm out of touch My mindset's toxic I'm losing my shit Why do I always feel like I'm lost in thought, taking shots at myself and every mistake Close my eyes, wait for sunrise so I can start again maybe one day I'll change Praying one day it will fade I'm so sick of feeling this numb just want to feel something else I'm so sick of feeling this numb Standing at a party take another photo put my smile on Everyone's around me why do I feel like I don't belong All of these people could care less about me Empty conversations sometimes I wish I had just stayed home My mindset's toxic I'm losing my shit Why do I always feel like I'm lost in thought, taking shots at myself and every mistake Close my eyes, wait for sunrise so I can start again maybe one day I'll change Praying one day it will fade I'm so sick of feeling this numb just want to feel something else I'm so sick of feeling this numb