Pity Party

Sometimes I think I want to disappear Everything I wish I was seems so completely unattainable And I hate what I see in the mirror And the words out of my mouth that I know you can't unhear You used to be the villain all the time Now you've gotten nicer and it's blurring all the lines It seems outrageous I could now be in the wrong It must be I've been dating you too long So throw me my pity party I don't say I'm sorry You always say it first That's the only way this thing works It's not your fault I was already mad And I take out my frustrations on you when I'm feeling bad It's just the bitterness that lingers on my tongue The ghost of every grievance always screaming what you've done So throw me my pity party I don't say I'm sorry You always say it first That's the only way this thing works And I, I'm working on patience I'm trying to unlearn The cold we created And I, want to validate your feelings Even when they're about me But I guess I'm still healing From the ways you used to hurt me So throw me my pity party I don't say I'm sorry You always say it first And that just makes me feel worse So throw me my pity party I don't say I'm sorry You always say it first That's the only way- Wait, I don't think this is working