Chasing Ghosts

I close my eyes in the dead of night to see When it's all quiet, the voices decide where my mind will be Hypnotized by all those lies that they told me Now I'm struggling to survive, waiting on false prophecies Don't fuckin' lie to me, you were right beside me Almost dead in the trenches, you reached back and guided me So fuckin' lost, I couldn't even stand the sight of me These demons have one, they've taken every piece of me Chasing apparitions, but baby that ain't my intention I just want you to sit in listen, let me feed those suspicions In the dead of the night, those skeletons they be spittin', bitchin' Displaying the worst of your life on fuckin' repetition Until I can take no more, I hear you but I'm not fuckin' listenin' You'll be prayin' for it all to stop, but God ain't paying you no attention Your heart's shattered in a million fuckin' pieces You've hit the bottom now, now it's time for the ascension, wake the f*ck up and fuckin' listen Well I don't know Yeah I don't know If I can find me I'm chasing ghosts I'm chasing ghosts Sleepin' with the enemy They'll never know They'll never know How much they haunt me I'm chasing ghosts I'm chasing ghosts They've got me where they want me now What is time, what is another day another hour to me Am I waiting to see, the hour the minute, the second, the moment death reaches me Am I living on borrowed time, have I used up all my nine lives Why is it that I thrive, in the worst of times Am I built to constantly live in a state of depression, anxiety with a fucked up mind, but I'm fine? As the clock winds, on my time, as time slows and the bullets fly by I think of all the times I missed my chance to shine, I'm left lookin' for one more fuckin' mic Just to spit a few words out it's a fight, with myself Surrender to my plights, my insecurities, imperfections, fears that may end my life But I'm alright? I'm not alright, in a constant tug of war with mind Caught between my head and my heart all the time These demons feed off my unstable mind Creatin' chaos, ensuring I won't make the finish line Can't I be redeemed Aren't things not always as they seem Have I lost faith in me, i guess Ill see, I mean, doubt and belief cant go hand in hand you see Please just believe, in me Well I don't know Yeah I don't know If I can find me I'm chasing ghosts I'm chasing ghosts Sleepin' with the enemy They'll never know They'll never know How much they haunt me I'm chasing ghosts I'm chasing ghosts They've got me where they want me now I pray that God will be patient with me I pray that God will see the good in me I pray that God will forgive me Forgive me I'm who I'm meant to be Well I don't know Yeah I don't know If I can find me I'm chasing ghosts I'm chasing ghosts Sleepin' with the enemy They'll never know They'll never know How much they haunt me I'm chasing ghosts I'm chasing ghosts They've got me where they want me now