I Needed To Vent

Look me in the eyes You can see my anguish I don't really go outside Cause I get anxious I'm sick and tired tryna vibe with people I don't bang with We don't speak the same language I hold close to my phone most days Don't nobody hit me up But it go both ways I'm afraid to express how I feel to my friends I don't want to infect them with my moods and shit I don't want them to regret spending time with me I try to cover it up with my humor I just post online people reply and tell me all the time That I got a bright future Cain - you got so much to look forward to I don't know why you stay focused on the past Everybody got regrets but I'm guilty of some shit That I really wish I could take back I've unlearned so much and I'm proud to say That these days I'm on a better path I just wish all the shit that I did when I was sick Wasn't still trying to bite me in the ass They put me on medication It made me worse I used to take pride in getting angry first Short fuse run through my family Understand me I'm trying to use patience to break the curse I try to Take each day how it arrives I've got so much shame I ain't proud of my lies I keep so much pain bottled inside I'm holding back tears that I want out of my eyes Hurt people hurt people Learn from that I'm trying to move on but I keep turning back When you've spent so long doing wrong feeling guilty It feels like you can't return from that But breathe in Breathe out Breathe in Breathe out Breathe in Breathe out Breathe in Breathe out