Ghetto Diary

How the f*ck I'm 'posed to think If this bitch is on my mind How the f*ck I heal from pain When everybody 'round me dying All my niggas getting shot I'm on the phone with Courtney crying I been smoking away my stress and you can I see it in my eyes They gave my nigga 15 'cause he took somebody's baby I been thinking if that was me Who in the hell would come to save me All them boxing moves Sam taught me When I fight I'm going crazy Open up my ghetto diary, start filling in the pages Bitch my mama out the mud She from Roselawn, you better check it Can't be mad about her son If he a thug you gotta respect it That's forever my OG She taught me game like she be coaching If a nigga step in yo way, you beat his ass That's what she told him Ion ever go to church but still I find somehow to pray Traumatized from that funeral I can't forget my nigga's face That's my nigga in that box, I'm begging God to give him back If not just point to that opp that took his life and ima blast And I can't ever seem to figure out What makes my niggas happy We grew up in these streets And none of us ain't no have daddy Screaming R.I.P Big Boo, that's like my pops I wish I had him I was sleeping on that floor With Lil' Booka, you couldn't imagine Now we out here on our own I'm tryna keep him from turning savage I been floating off this doja so I can get escape the madness Ain't no food inside the crib It's only right I make shit happen Teach my brother to be a man 'Cause I can't have my baby lacking How the f*ck I'm 'posed to think If this bitch is on my mind How the f*ck I heal from pain When everybody 'round me dying All my niggas getting shot I'm on the phone with Courtney crying I been smoking away my stress and you can I see it in my eyes They gave my nigga 15 'cause he took somebody's baby I been thinking if that was me Who in the hell would come to save me All them boxing moves Sam taught me When I fight I'm going crazy Open up my ghetto diary, start filling in the pages Bitch I'll write until my hands bleed Show you where I'm from First blunt I ever smoked with Booka Was some Kush called Bubblegum Breaking in houses with Lil' Sam We know it's wrong but it was fun Inhaling all this pressure 'til the smoke conceals my lungs I function off a pill or two Prescriber's mostly preapproved The shit you see in me nigga, is the shit I'd rather see in you I struggle from depression It don't help if my mama got it to Ion wanna cut you off 'cause that's normally what my father do My nigga knows I'm the reason he got a set up for a zip So if he come around here squeezing I guess it is what it is Tell my auntie that I love her And I won't let 'em take her child It's gon be a fucking horror scene if they think I'm going out How the f*ck I'm 'posed to think If this bitch is on my mind How the f*ck I heal from pain When everybody 'round me dying All my niggas getting shot I'm on the phone with Courtney crying I been smoking away my stress and you can I see it in my eyes They gave my nigga 15 'cause he took somebody's baby I been thinking if that was me Who in the hell would come to save me All them boxing moves Sam taught me When I fight I'm going crazy Open up my ghetto diary, start filling in the pages