Lotta Lessons Learned

So tired of being lied to So tired of being judged for compromising what my pride do Ion hide in no disguise this who I am Watch who you lie to, it's only me Can't tell bout yourself ion have the right to The golden dream Just venting to the mic Sometimes I feel that's my therapist Pain could've been avoided I'm not no advocate for marriages I do enjoy a plain Jane and a car to rock the karat's in Choose your words carefully That saves you from embarrassment, yea Eternally I bandaged up wounds that never healed Gave a bitch satisfaction for feeling what I feel Gave love so many chances to show me if it's real Trusted niggas in a place where I lay and pay bills Cried to Ann so many times She know the sound when I'm hurt I feel I'm asleep in the Benz Thinkin bout what I'm worth I wish my nigga was alert and I had call off of work Had hella respect for my homie til he sold me some dirt (Damn) People change everyday All it takes is one rich nigga to take her outta state Buy her clothes she can't afford Introduce her to a play She flew back in Tom Ford and left her man the same day (Damn) I love the staying out the way Love the feel of holding money Stepping on this Bathing Ape Love smelling like Dior and keeping finances straight Maybe I'm not the one to date Miss who I was, he not the same I watched you play with my intelligence Never judge a book by its cover but by the elements There's power into trusting each other I seek evidence Built stress behind these walls And it gets hard when I try telling it I'm curious bout yo life See yo decisions got you wrestling Our mind been out shape since we started taking all this medicine Sometimes I feel ok Other times I don't feel relevant It's hard working on yourself You gotta stay ahead of it (You gotta stay ahead of it) Working on my people skills Still feel like no one loves me Depression gave me confidence Won't put no one above me Trying to put on front for some of these people kinda bugs me I feel it when you tell me how you feel but could you trust me I've carried some of yo secrets I cried while you was sleeping Smoke a zip to the face I feel like every woman's cheating I feel like time is always wasted Some of them stories keep repeating The road gets tougher everyday I'll give you half or we ain't eating Could you be real Inside of fake shit I been the only one to really show you where my faith gets We settle for love We scared to be alone, let's face it Even when I'm wrong I know this liquor helps me chase it Most often I need a hug But I don't wanna be touched So I gotta talk to drugs It's like my only lil crutch I gotta habit just to thug it out No matter how rough Struggle everyday and fight thru it No matter how tough Tryna live amongst the standards Billionaire on campus Listening to Gotti album He got cribs in the Hamptons Shawty name Cinnamon Her ass filled with insulin Need some type discipline In this world we've been living in Sell out shows in Wimbledon Smoked away my innocence That mindset is old It's time focus onto bigger shit And that don't work for me I get a bag they say I'm posed to give it back But you ain't work for it I go through it for real Don't my business on the gram Cause I'm determined to heal Don't bring these niggas to my crib Cause they determined to kill Don't take these bitches on the road All they want is thrill Don't take these hoes out shopping They want Louis Vuitton They want Prada, rockin' Jordan's at the crib with LeBron Her mama been sellin' pussy every since she was young She got a box of condoms for her birthday and a thong (Uh) Rolling grams out the zip Stay playa you gonna be able to achieve whatever Stay playa you gonna be able to stunt on whoever Do it major you gon' be worth way more than a Tesla Ion give a f*ck about if niggas fuckin' you better I ain't worried bout no clout I'm out stacking my cheddar Dolce and Gabbana the cologne and OV for the sweater I love the losses cause for me it's so much easy to get up It's way too easy to get up now