Never My Fault

It comes when it comes My unlocked open book Two years clean and sober Is just what it took For it all to come haunt me From so long ago Somehow all feels like yesterday though I thought it would fade Images wouldn't last Shouldn't it all go away After 13 years past But for so many decades My mind wasn't whole It wasn't ready to process These stories in full Though it don't hurt the same To rub an old wound with salt It still shows me today It was never my fault It was never my fault now that I'm loved And have found the right help   I think What other lies Have I believed about myself I needed permission to speak out to grow My chance to forgive and learn to let go Isn't this how I heal let someone else know They are heard they are seen That they're not alone So much of my life I believed I was wrong   But there's not a word I would change in these songs no Turns out I'm not wrong   I wish I knew way back then That they call it assault It was left in my hands it was never my fault Open the cage Unlock the vault Turns out It was never my fault My story to tell No more I'll be fines No vengeance or hate Just a free state of mind I wish I knew way back then That they call it assault It was left in my hands it was never my fault Open the cage Unlock the vault Turns out It was never my fault