Happy Sad Birthday

Why is it every single birthday I spend time wiping my tears away Need a minute to reflect on my year Getting older is something I fear With twenty-two ringing my line I travel some way back in time Wishing I could hit the car brakes And go back to year sixteens first date Something I would have told my young self Is to live for you and no one else Stop caring what the masses think And just keep on moving to your own blinks A few wise years under my belt Why can't I still ask for help Go to parties when Im feeling lonely Rooms of people who just don't know me Happy sad birthday to me I wish that I was kidding Maybe this year i'll know myself Better than I know anyone else Happy sad birthday to me What age can I stop counting Maybe next year i'll hold them back And stop getting sad about years that passed Close my eyes and wish on candles Fighting time is an uphill battle Cross my fingers and trust I wished right It's the one day that's mine till midnight Thinking back it's a bad game to play When I'm waiting around for payday And I fear that my futures dull And hoping my cup will stay half full Taking leaps like a frog on lilies Hard to sleep when my minds too busy Trying hard to understand myself It's easier acting like someone else This year the air feels lighter Back on my two feet i'm feeling brighter Feeling doubt is the human way Just know everything will be okay Happy sad birthday to me I wish that I was kidding Maybe this year i'll know myself Better than I know anyone else Happy sad birthday to me What age can I stop counting Maybe next year i'll hold them back And stop getting sad about years that passed Happy sad birthday to me I wish that I was kidding Maybe this year i'll know myself Better than i know anyone else Happy sad birthday to me What age can I stop counting Maybe next year i'll hold them back And stop getting sad about years that passed