The Story of Childhood Trauma

This is where it all began At a young age He never took the blame And he kept causing me so much shame I was forced To endure that divorce And he hurt me with no remorse I am past that life But the scars are embedded deep inside of me Oh now it has caused me to feel so numb I so easily feel nothing at all I don't know how to cope with my life So now all I do is fall I now know why I can't remember my early life And now I'm left with just a strong mind Am I enough? I can't tell because my memories are so rough I just want to remember and have it not be so tough I forget the good moments in my life All because he decided to belittle me I keep avoiding how I feel inside It just brings me down until I've cried I just want to see the happiness in my life And not feel the pull to disappear into the light And I realized a problem when I forgot me I pushed myself away and I forget what it was like to just be I want to feel everything in my life It's ok to just feel what is brought my way I want to live in the moment Give myself space to feel the fulfillment I promise it's ok to not feel glowing I don't have to worry about it showing Find inner peace within me