Beyond My Reach

I've been away for a while running circles in my mind When I was a little child they used to remind me Saying worth does not depend on the things that I acheive And I was so sure then that I could really believe it But if that were still true wouldn't be feeling like I do That everything I knew it only served to deceive me When I'm in the dirt of this earth what is it that I'm leaving Behind now uncertain can I really redeem the ticking time Should have read the signs sooner opened up my eyes Seen life is more than just the measure of the passing time That is pressing on my shoulders see the decades getting colder Like a weight upon my chest getting heavy with regrets Know we should never look back but it's always right here It's the present future past can I ever forget the fear They say it's a Journey there'll be things you can't control Never could have warned me how much it hurts to let go when my strength fails will you look down on me In this world so frail what you want's not what you need Never satisfied as the air I breathe and all my desire Is just beyond my reach Funny how you think you finally know what you want Then when you've almost got it find it isn't what you thought Laundering the same facade that we're not wandering lost Wonder where the time has gone Am I the only one still holding on Fighting ultimatums when the world is always changing Locate missing motivation recreate a way to make it Certainly never seems to get easy And this hurting won't stop the bleeding Before I'd learned firsthand of the dark yet I could never understand how hard it'd be to forget Erase the contents of my head not to mention all the memories that apprehend Every shred of composure knowledge set to show you Is destiny just a dying thing Journey there'll be things you can't control Never could have warned me how much it hurts to let go when my strength fails will you look down on me In this world so frail what you want's not what you need Never satisfied as the air I breathe and all my desire Is just beyond my reach They say run after wisdom and to seek it more than gold But if it only brings more sorrow why even go at all Because I'm starting to assume that every single pursuit Is just another hard lesson in the things I wish I never knew At all Journey there'll be things you can't control Never could have warned me how much it hurts to let go when my strength fails will you look down on me In this world so frail what you want's not what you need Never satisfied as the air I breathe and all my desire Is just beyond my reach