Goodbyes

Lived most of my life a lonely heart upon the run Like a wandering star orbiting without a sun Never met somebody that I couldn't walk away from Always thought that love was something that they simply made up For everyone but me, laughing at their make believe Can't they see that nothing lasts And if it's sweet it's gonna pass fast Then you came along and I thought maybe I was wrong So this probably was too, though the opposite felt true But it doesn't really matter anyway, nothing that I ever do or say Could ever reach you or make this change We all make mistakes, we're all afraid Know I truly loved you from the start Wish I could just shut off my heart Realize I can't apologize to someone who only loves Goodbyes And I know if it feels right means it isn't real We rationalize and idealize, human life conflicting paradigms Inconvenient, can't you see, no meant to be, it's fantasy I don't believe in anything I've had to leave, I've had to grieve Sorry to have to let you know, sorry to ever let it show In my eyes not the design that you most likely had in mind Fragmented perception of our shattered reflection Wish that I could be perfection But even angels fall from heaven Fool me twice, fool me thrice, fool me probably ten times But I'm the fool to never see a tiger doesn't change it's stripes Was I just fun to you, a little thrill with time to kill What did you really think I'd feel These wounds they never heal, was it all just cheap thrills to you But it doesn't really matter anyway, nothing that I ever do or say Could ever reach you or make this change We all make mistakes, we're all afraid Know I truly loved you from the start Wish I could just shut off my heart Realize I can't apologize to someone who only loves Goodbyes Goodbyes We were here without a reason and lost without a cause I'll be stuck here many seasons but I do not want love Thanks to you Doesn't really matter anyway, nothing that I ever do or say Could ever reach you or make this change We all make mistakes, we're all afraid Know I truly loved you from the start Wish I could just shut off my heart Realize I can't apologize to someone who only loves Goodbyes