Eternal War

I'm alive I believe that I can save myself Closing eyes I see my life It's useless and avaricious I open eyes And understand That it's not me I look in mirrors and see not myself It's a monster in me Which was invented by hatred I destroy myself infusing the devil's poison I dig to myself a grave I need a help Because I'm dying But who will help me? Only I I believe That I'm saved And I swear That I will change F*ck It's impossible to live Further so I don't can I don't want Where I'm run Life is short and we don't appreciate it I will start everything again I will not be so And I can save myself from abyss From abyss of pain and sufferings From eternal agony and torments I can everything I will be better And I swear I will be live Please Forgive me my soul Because how much you have survived I will be cleansed I will be expelled I will return everything on the places Closing eyes, I see my life It's useless and avaricious I open eyes and understand That it's not me