dream

I just had this dream Where I was kinda happy Would I try to sleep Even though I can't have it Lost all of my beams When I was just a sad kid Now that shit's extreme I'm burning my skin with acid All the way around My mind goes up and down Can't seem to find a way So I balance on my own Can I fade away While no one is looking Tired of visibility And bothering other people The only thing I do Is being my true self and This seems like an issue But i know it shouldn't be though Every time I try To be a little better I make someone cry Like I'm a joy barretter I just had this dream Where I was kinda happy Would I try to sleep Even though I can't have it Lost all of my beams When I was just a sad kid Now that shit's extreme I'm burning my skin with acid Get your shit together And get the f*ck out of my home You think you're really clever But your heart is made of stone Tired of being hurt And tired of hurting myself I'm fucking up my health And all cause of a pervert I just had this dream Where I was kinda happy Gonna seam my self esteem Turn to revolutionary My mind is a palace And I must preserve it Gonna strengthen all my ballasts No more sinking like I did And then this way who knows I finally defeat my fears So I could move on In my armor cladded with tears I'm not bothered anymore With those who wish me bad They just have their open sore And they're just raving mad I just had this dream Where I was kinda happy Would I try to sleep Even though I can't have it Lost all of my beams When I was just a sad kid Now that shit's extreme I'm burning my skin with acid Do you wanna know What has happened in that dream Get yourself comfortable And listen before you deem Unlike reality I was a happy little kid Gave a f*ck to all the shit Cause I knew that I was lit When I turned into a teen Weirdly things didn't change, no I was fucking free And success was on my range My love life on the go I was never by my own, no Friends on overflow Won't stop calling up my phone When I became an adult I had the job of my dreams Nothing was difficult It was as happy as it seems I died peacefully on my sleep Went to heaven for my good deeds No possessions left to keep I had planted all my seeds And then I finally woke up Realized it was just a mean lie Then got up to put makeup When I just wanted to die Wouldn't it be easier If life could just be like that But I think I grew up stronger Cause I'm this artsy little brat