thoughts from an unfamiliar place

Should I write another song And pretend that I belong Know I'm fighting with these feelings So I'm never on my own Live my life inside of four walls I want more Cross the world to try and explore And now I'll never be enough Recognise the rush Read between the lines Ecstasy of finding me I never could've Planned for the comedown Or what I found And I'm running out of lines in the First fucking verse of my life Is it me? Is it you? I don't know what to do But I know this doesn't feel like Home Oh anymore 'Cuz I know what I feel And I know it's for real So I might just pack my bags and Go An' go alone So can you tell me who you are? Tell me what you need Lemme tell you everything you'll never see 'Cuz money doesn't grow on trees And even if it did I don't know if you could Stomach all the wonder The thunder The fire The fire keeps burning All the while that I know that you're hurting But suck it up bitch You chose this path I know it's hard I gave you all the tools and a nice head-start So you better not f*ck it up Cuz what you're leaving behind A swimming pool and a wife It's what they work their whole lives for Boy What makes you think you're alive What makes you think that you're right How many times have we tried To get it into your mind That you're not right for this life Lil' boy (Oh I don't fucking know) Is it me? Is it you? I don't know what to do But I know this doesn't feel like Home Oh anymore 'Cuz I know what I feel And I know it's for real So I think I'll pack my bags and Go An' go alone I've never felt so out of place inside my own skin I've never felt so unrelated to my own kin And all the things that used to make me feel like I'm me Feel like they're stopping me from being who I could be Who I should be, who I would be If I cared a little less and I was a little more Then maybe I could show you all the feelings that I caught Instead I sit here staring at the ceiling and the floor But maybe that's a feeling that I need To show me that there's more to what I feel than what I see That I could be a king inside a world that I believe Instead of running from myself a thousand miles across the sea But right now I just don't recognise my face There are parts of me I tried my fucking hardest to erase And the more that I spend my time drifting further into space The more I wonder if my home will always be an unfamiliar place