I Been

I been I been diving in them heavy waters Know the truth is hard to swallow All my problems made me hallow I been tryna follow All my dreams and aspirations Don't look at me your invasive You be tryna cloud my mind But temptations so divine Temptations so divine I been tryna give it time I be tryna spit these rhymes I be tryna run to find Reasons climax critical But Satan tortures pitiful And no i ain't Satanist but i might pull that ritual I been falling in them habits Making bad transactions Giving temporary rewards for true happiness Addiction isn't having it I think I'm going batshit It wants me all and half of it It wants me all and half of it It wants me all and Yea But I'm fighting like a man Still on my feet while that shit hits the fan Gruesomely I'm killing all my demons and they friends like Berserk Eating rap niggas like desert while I'm fighting all these urges Fighting for the freedom of my mind on this earth When i walk up in the party she ain't fighting for her nigga while I'm flirting I been I was disappointing people cause they thought i was doomed I was staying up at night and grinding all way to noon I was losing it all but i was saying "its cool" Like a nigga out the dessert with some ashy ass skin and some chapped ole lips I been crawling on the floor tryna reach for a pool I been falling to my lowest and attracting the wolves Almost turned into food and almost took for my wool I was suffering at home and turning purple off the pressure in my chest you could say I'm a Boov Ain't nobody see it in me Ain't nobody wanna mention But niggas wouldn't get it cause they not in my position If a nigga hated on me then they opposition Turn that nigga to a broken watermelon They wouldn't get it but I'm never tripping Its keep on moving cause I'm so relentless even while I'm steady slipping Don't forget it