Purpose

Uno them ones where you're looking for your purpose But you dunno what it is, lemme talk on couple things Yo, been stuck up in my thoughts, looking for my purpose Searching for my worth got me feeling like I'm worthless The pain just remains, it's continuing to worsen Toxic to myself, guess I am my own burden Been stuck up in my thoughts, looking for my purpose Searching for my worth got me feeling like I'm worthless The pain just remains, it's continuing to worsen Toxic to myself, guess I am my own burden Searching for my purpose, but I can't seem to find it It's me against myself with the demons that I'm fighting All these mixed emotions, yet I struggle to describe it Pouring out my soul and how I feel when I write it These snakes on the ladders can't stop me from climbing I profit from my struggle, turn the struggle into rhyming Diamond in the dirt, so I keep on mining Inspired from my losses, it's just non-stop grinding Conflicted, confused and you guessed I been hurting Tryna make this work, it doesn't seem to be working Looking all around to see the evil lurking Torturing my soul, it gets so disturbing Inflicted with these scars tryna heal, I'm wounded A constant battle got me thinking imma lose it I don't trust anyone, what you say you have to prove it The actions do the talking, if they can't you better move it I'm tired, deflated, frustrated, neglected They always let me down to the point where it's expected My pride's at its peak, I'll never show that I'm affected It's getting to the point where I'm learning to accept it I'd be lying if I said it doesn't get to me Cus I'm surrounded by these people who envy me And I can see it in their eyes, that's the jealousy Where they're praying that my downfall is my destiny But I can't let that happen, Mummy's telling me to go for this Always on my back, saying "Son, you gotta go for it Life is full of hurdles, but I'm here to get you over it Music is your path and I just wanna see you blow in it" Been closing off my heart, I find it difficult to open it Struggling to trust, cus of people who have broken it Expecting less, expectations are lowering The love was never shown, yet for others I was showing it Yo, been stuck up in my thoughts, looking for my purpose Searching for my worth got me feeling like I'm worthless The pain just remains, it's continuing to worsen Toxic to myself, guess I am my own burden Been stuck up in my thoughts, looking for my purpose Searching for my worth got me feeling like I'm worthless The pain just remains, it's continuing to worsen Toxic to myself, guess I am my own burden It's a cold world and it's a cold game Gaining from the pain for my own gain Praying that my bruddas dem, they don't change We're going toe to toe and it's a close game Tightening my screws, but start to feel them loosen Been stuck up in my thoughts with all of this confusion This pain is a killer, tryna deal with the nuisance This can't be my fate, need to find a solution But how much longer can I really keep going The laughing and the smiling till I really start to show it Like how much longer till the people start to notice That this pressure that I feel is what I'm struggling to cope with Been tryna hold it up, while it tries to weigh me down The pressure's so heavy, I can feel it break me down Conversations with my demons, they're tryna take me out I'm just praying that somebody's gonna come and save me now But I been stuck up in my thoughts, looking for my purpose Searching for my worth got me feeling like I'm worthless The pain just remains, it's continuing to worsen Toxic to myself, guess I am my own burden Been stuck up in my thoughts, looking for my purpose Searching for my worth, got me feeling like I'm worthless The pain just remains, it's continuing to worsen Toxic to myself, guess I am my own burden