Wish I Could Stay

I've been the villain More than I care to admit And I've taken pills from doctors Since I was a kid There's no cure for loneliness No cure for pain But there's healing in forgiveness and love I wish I could stay here I wish I could be a better man Spend the whole day here Show you it's more than just pretend But I'm running from a lifetime of chasing myself And trying to find my purpose in someone else And I hate to say I'm not ok But I'm not afraid to make mistakes anymore Call me a sinner Don't call me a saint I don't want to be the winner I didn't even want to play It's not black and white To do the right thing at the right time But there's color in the fight for love I wish I could stay here I wish I could be a better man Spend the whole day here Show you it's more than just pretend But I'm running from a lifetime of chasing myself And trying to find my purpose in someone else And I hate to say I'm not ok But I'm not afraid to make mistakes anymore I'm running from a lifetime of chasing myself And trying to find my purpose in someone else And I hate to say I'm not ok But I'm not afraid I'm not afraid I wish I could stay here I wish I could be a better man Spend the whole day here Show you it's more than just pretend But I'm running from a lifetime of chasing myself And trying to find my purpose in someone else And I hate to say I'm not ok But I'm not afraid to make mistakes anymore