Abstract Sun

Abstract sun, you're the Sanskrit in my bookDominion, innocence and pride you tookAs a god, I drink the beauty with my eyesAs a man, I do become what I despiseThe first time I tried, I bled and I diedOut of the jar to this flamboyant starDrawn like a moth, clutching becauseThe idol was there, I approached struck with fearLocust sun, you're the apple and the pieAppolyon, wrapped in ash and so am IAnd I ask, do men cry or am I wrong?Gone too far will I live to end this song?Again now I crept, I saw and I weptSo near, still so far, I'm nothing at allThe last time was right, I gave you my lifeThe purpose I found and now I am goneInto the Abstract Sun