Disfigured

Repulsion of beauty drove me to huntA frenzy of self hate possessing meViolated their bodies, stripped of their prideTortured and twisted until they have diedHatred inside is all i would findI despise what i see in the mirrorSadistic hateful scumI kill them but its myself i hateNow ill do myself tooA straight razor will reshape my faceFirst my ears then my noseBlood is gushing continue to carveErase the face i hateNow im hacking at my chestA frenzy of self hate possessed meControls my actions, controls my thoughtsAs i scrape away at my skinI fill my tub, with alcoholI plunge into the burning poolThe pain intense, my whole bodyIs drenched in scalding liquidDespite my pain i am ableTo grab a lighter on the counterThe flint ignites, the flames eruptIm consumed in the infernoCauterize, my skin is charredRegenerate, more loathsome than beforeI despise what i see in the mirrorSadistic hateful scumThe abomination before my eyesA reflection of meI see an image of disfigured evilIve skinned myself aliveDripping with blood and blistered by fireThe face i hate erased