Immobilized

There seems to be A problem with me I just can't seem To go through the motions and feel like I'm mentally free It punishes me Devoid sense of reality Destructive to me So heavy I'm stuck to my seat How'd I get in this position? Immobilized by indecision Negative predisposition Involuntarily reconditioned This is not who Not who I want to be It can't be true This feeling is smothering me