silly sad girl song

Hey it's been a minute How you been feeling Not like myself that's for sure Know that he won't get it But I still go over Trip on my clothes on the floor I hate the silence walking down the stairs It all echoes back Reminds me that no one's there I don't wanna be alone tonight I don't wanna hear what's on my mind 'Cuz I was so lost For a long time Thought that I'd be better So I could live my life So what the hell now Never gonna come down I am so lost So what the hell now What the hell now Kinda feeling numb There's no high Wanna smoke the fog that's in my mind It's not that I'm sad But I don't feel happy And I'm awake till sunrise I'll sleep when I'm not alive I hate the silence sitting in my room And I don't text back 'cuz I don't rly want to Guess I'll go over Better than being alone Won't let him get close But don't wanna be on my own 'Cuz I was so lost For a long time Thought that I'd be better So I could live my life So what the hell now Never gonna come down I am so lost So what the hell now