Decades Of Despair

I'm drifting through life without any goalsBlindfolded fool, in my heart there's a holeI've looked everywhere but I can't find the real meThe righteous one, the one I always wanted to beIn my dreams I'm all covered in bloodBeaten to death, lying in the mudIf I died tonight it would be such a reliefMy soul would finally be freeTo a blood-filled sky or down below, that's where I belongFor I have lied, and I have sinned and I have killed your dreamSleepless nights turn into yearsDecades of despairAll hope is gone since years agoAlmighty god bring me homeUnconscious for the last time in my lifeI hate it! Time to lie down and dieLet the darkness take me homeA beautiful end of my totally wasted lifeTo a blood-filled sky or down below, that's where I belongFor I have lied, and I have sinned and I have killed your dreamSleepless nights turn into yearsDecades of despairAll hope is gone since years agoAlmighty god bring me home