Backwards, Not Broken

I'm not allowed to say my heart breaks With all the choices that you make You know I always choose to stay You say you're trying to revive what you once knew Like all the times where I would go Into open waters with you But you became this force You walked all over everything around you Got scared, then ran away So please, understand if you want to scream I'll be the one hearing the echoes of you and me And everything that we should be And I'm still shaking, but I can't get you out It comes in waves and every night, I drown Just know we're backwards, not broken now You're not allowed to claim that my voice Is your favorite sound When you've been drowning me out And the love you have for me Is sitting there untouched 'Cause you'd rather be touched by her So please, understand if you want to scream I'll be the one hearing the echoes of you and me And everything that we should be And I'm still shaking, but I can't get you out It comes in waves and every night, I drown Just know we're backwards, not broken now I disappear everyday so you can breathe Still, I think you know You're the one that's suffocating me Unspoken understanding The world won't make sense if you're not standing Next to me But you became this force You walked all over everything around you Got scared, then ran away So please, understand if I need to scream You'll be the one hearing the echoes of you and me And everything that we should be And you're still shaking, but you can't get me out It comes in waves and every night, you drown Just know we're backwards, not broken now