a better me

I want clear skin Cut my split ends And my shitty relationships Why do I put up with it? Wish I could shape shift Into clothes that don't fit I'm wearing myself too thin If only I was disciplined Cause she's so pretty And I'm so tired She makes it look easy To live that life There isn't a difference Between her and I But she likes to stay grounded And I stay high I rob myself of my own happiness I try so hard, but nothing ever sticks I wonder if she struggles like me If her life is really like what it seems If I stopped going to parties and went to Pilates Maybe I'd feel much better 'bout my body I wonder how nice it would be If I was just a better me I feel guilty Cause I don't get much sleep And I keep eating after 8 I keep messing up the day Cause she's so pretty And I'm so tired She makes it look easy To live that life There isn't a difference Between her and I But I'll never be as lovely Even though I'm trying I rob myself of my own happiness I try so hard, but nothing ever sticks I wonder if she struggles like me If her life is really like what it seems If I stopped going to parties and went to Pilates Maybe I'd feel much better 'bout my body I wonder how nice it would be If I was just a better me Dragged out of bed I made it to the gym I wish doing my best Was good enough for them Good enough for them I rob myself of my own happiness I try so hard, but nothing ever sticks I wonder if she struggles like me If her life is really like what it seems If I stopped going to parties and went to Pilates Maybe I'd feel much better 'bout my body I wonder how nice it would be If I was just a better me