Needed You

A toxic combination Liquid sugar on my tongue A slow suffocation All my senses comes undone Can't fight the fascination Even tho you're a loaded gun I'm scared to run away You make my heart decay A bad reputation Overthinking till I'm numb Use my imagination To see what we'd become Poisoned medication You got me under your thumb I'm tired all the time You wear me as a crime Intrusive thoughts sing me to sleep The venom runs in me too deep I pray the lord my soul to keep You've pulled me down on to your level Now I'm laying' with a devil Falling through the floor No air in my lungs Knew me to my core We were both so young Pretending I'm okay We both know I'm not But i needed you I needed you Running on empty Nothing feels real My eyes stained blurry Wasn't part of the deal Always fucking worried How will i ever heal But i needed you I needed you You know i got my demons and I'm used to feeling pain Weaponized my weakness Break me down for your own gain But when your fingers touch me I feel lightning in my veins You hold me deep within Imprinted in my skin Crying till the morning Cause the monsters come at night Ignoring all your warnings The hurt means me alive Craving your attention I know it's undignified I've torn myself in two A result from loving you Intrusive thoughts sing me to sleep The venom runs in me too deep I pray the lord my soul to keep You've pulled me down on to your level Now I'm laying' with a devil Falling through the floor No air in my lungs Knew me to my core We were both so young Pretending I'm okay We both know I'm not But i needed you I needed you Running on empty Nothing feels real My eyes stained blurry Wasn't part of the deal Always fucking worried How will i ever heal But i needed you I needed you