gas station song

I'm not in love anymore But I think that I used to be I wish that I was When im bored But I know there's no way that I could be I cried in the gas station line Yeah, the guy probably thought I was crazy If I wasn't alive yeah, you'd probably still find ways to hate me I wish that I was on the moon At least I think I'm over it for you I can't let go of anything like I used to Darling I'm hurt too I know I'm a bit of a flight risk I thought you would risk it I always believed what you said and You knew that it would kill me The heater is on in my car but I'm Rolling down the windows Its 20 degrees but I think I look Better when I'm freezing The air isn't clean inside my lungs I think I'm drowning Abusing your power Careful I keep track and I'm still counting I've always felt misunderstood Stop acting like you get me Conditioned to think That what I say comes off as crazy Forced into silence Quiet I thought you might kill me I'm crying in vain cause either way you never listen They say absence always Makes the heart grow fonder 24 Months and I still hate you More than often I hangout online to see what They all say about me I hate all my friends But care about all their opinions My mother says That one day This will all be nothing Think maybe she's right Or maybe she is just on something I keep getting older how does anyone survive this? I keep getting older how does anyone survive this?