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The deeper you love the more it hurts They usually say it's cuz your love is more than words But I had the words for you and you shoved them down my throat I said I love you You said choke The deeper you trust the more you learn They usually say it's cuz trustworthy is hard earned But you made the promises when you swore you'd never go I said I need you You said don't Do you think it was easy For me to love When I've been through this nightmare before And you knew I wouldn't do it if you called it what it was Do you think it was easy For me to trust When I've been fighting hell for six years And you broke down every promise and remade them in six months Oh The harder you fall the more it hurts I like to think that's why my pain is beyond words But I took the sabotage cuz I knew you'd never go I said I'm sorry You said no So what do I make of all that stuff You swore that through it all you'd always choose the love But I trusted promises you swore you'd never break How can I let go If that was fake Do you think it was righteous to break your vow When you've been through that nightmare before And you swore you'd never leave me even if I'd broken down Do you think it was honest to say you'd try Then leave me fighting hell for six weeks while You rethought every promise without ever telling me Abused with my love Abused for my god Do you think it wasn't "just" of me to wish you were sorry Cuz it's not enough To shatter my trust And claim that my mistakes made the things you did okay Where is the loyal man I knew Shouldn't have sworn he'd be the break from solitude Cuz I gave it all to him And he didn't even choke When I said I love you He said So