They Don't Know

So many people wanna talk but they don't know what it means to be feeling suicidal Nobody really understands all the rage and pain that's deep down inside you Gotta cater to your demons, gotta feed your emotions, they become like an idol So many people wanna talk but they don't know, they don't know nah They don't know, they don't know nah nah They don't know, they don't know nah nah They don't know, they don't know nah nah They don't know, they don't know I need you right here by my side but I don't need you to save me I'm having a hard time to choose maybe I should love me or hate me The stress in my mind's sort of driving me nuts, I don't know what I should make of it And all you can see is the smiles, nah, you don't really want me to say this shit All the times that I am waiting at the bus station hoping the pain'll pass away Or all the times that I'm traveling in a train, thinking that it'll crash in a lake I'm not priding in my pain, I'm not priding in my sorrow, I'm just fighting for tomorrow Is your happiness for rent? Is your happiness for lease? Let me know if I can borrow Am I still alive? I don't even know. I don't even glow Need to ask God questions and I need to know Ran away twice before so I don't wanna hit the road But I'm a bloody sinner and of course, I'm hypocritical First place was the worst place, now I'm in a different zone, boy I better pray Did you bless me or curse me? Or why am I always afraid of another day? Can't even meet my friends anymore Don't wanna hear some boring jokes, I don't wanna fake a smile Nah buddy, I'm sorry, don't call me I don't wanna hang out. Been hibernating for a while Give me time, I need my sanity back I don't know what I did but I need my family back And it feels like the Spirit's gone out of me I just wanna get this paraclete back, yeah yeah yeah So many people wanna talk but they don't know what it means to be feeling suicidal Nobody really understands all the rage and pain that's deep down inside you Gotta cater to your demons, gotta feed your emotions, they become like an idol So many people wanna talk but they don't know, they don't know nah They don't know, they don't know nah nah They don't know, they don't know nah nah They don't know, they don't know nah nah They don't know, they don't know Been to calvary, dropped all my worries there Wanted to speak face to face but nobody's there I saw a placard hanging telling me to hang on, But I got this one shitty life that I'd rather spare Got so many things I wanna say to the Lord So I went to the cross, spent the day with the Lord Before the Crucifix, I should pray to the Lord But I got emotional, I screamed my pain to the Lord Screaming out my loudest voice, Lord I need some help All these nightmares and crazy dreams would rather leave me dead How do you explain how I got stabbed in my neck And I woke up to find blood dripping down my chest I keep seeing the woman that sold me to the feds And I wonder if she saw my face the same night when she slept I wonder if she thought that she was doing the right thing But she destroyed a family when she kicked my life in Before then, I was already a maniac They just found the right avenue so they can paint me black I got iniquities and I'm not sure if God just paid me back Hostility everywhere, I'll be the man to take the flak Right now, I'm a melancholic masochist But down in my DNA, I'm wired to be a pacifist So I sit quiet seeing where the road leads me My insolence and paranoid now feeds me Wanna dig a hole in the middle of this universe You'll take me serious when I plunge myself into the earth I'm naked, I need a covering for my soul And I'm lost in the world, I've been running round the globe It's a mad ting, a mad feeling tingling my brain But I really got to stop blaming it on the pain It feels like the Sahara, God please make it rain But even if you do, my life will never be the same So many people wanna talk but they don't know what it means to be feeling suicidal Nobody really understands all the rage and pain that's deep down inside ya Gotta cater to your demons, gotta feed your emotions, they become like an idol So many people wanna talk but they don't know, they don't know nah They don't know, they don't know nah nah They don't know, they don't know nah nah They don't know, they don't know nah nah They don't know, they don't know