To the Surface (feat. Pariseli)

What did I do to deserve this I'm finding my purpose I have a feeling I know what it is I'm finally swimming to the surface What works when the work don't work out I feel hurt my church done burnt down No blood no take the bread No love my faith was dead So I built another platform My homies asking what that's for I answer I'ma build an arc Why, 'cuz it's just the start And in my heart I feel like it's time When I do it wrong I gotta write my rhymes Like I right my wrongs when I'm outta line And I'm feeling strong 'cuz I changed my mind It's not set in stone the way I thought it was I would come and go like I bought a bus I just wanna grow And I wanna know And I wanna show there's a lot of us And we're on the cusp What did I do to deserve this I'm finding my purpose I have a feeling I know what it is I'm finally swimming to the surface Have you ever felt lost in the ocean In a way where you're not floatin' Submerged, can't keep focus Look around to see if anyone noticed They didn't Cuz you're in a bubble Quickly you realize you're in trouble Grab a shovel, try to dig your way upwards But you're in the sea and that's not how it works On the turf of Poseidon tryna find Atlantis It's all fun and games 'til you're stuck there stranded No land in sight I could die tonight So I sit and cry 'cuz that's not how I planned it I went dancin' with mermaids Like in Burbank This is my brain in the first place And it hurts right When you think that it'll work fine But it ends up not working at all The abyss is darkness somehow I saw the light I nearly lost it without fully knowing why Holy water and soap I wash the sin from my hands Holy father and hope I found the surface again What did I do to deserve this I'm finding my purpose I have a feeling I know what it is I'm finally swimming to the surface