SORRY

(I needed you an awful lot these last few days) (We're all in danger) (This is a matter of life or death) Life's not all sunshine and rainbows If this was heaven I'd turn in my halo And I don't wanna be happy If that means I'd have to sell my soul Oh and I could turn my whole life around With a single word to you If you could find it in your heart would you forgive me Oh and I could try so hard to get Away with all the things I said But I don't wanna carry them with me If I said sorry Could I could I could I move on Without the memories Of who I was I won't forget All of my felonies With time I'll learn to stress without All of the casualties Could you forgive me If I said sorry (Well what's gonna happen to me) (What should happen to you) (That's a very unfair question) (Let's get started) If I said sorry could we let it go I know I'm bad at apologies get stuck in my throat And every word that I say is like I'm dropping my stones Looking down at the dirt seeing words that he wrote Yeah he said I'm prideful I think way too much of myself So much I'd die for The feeling of not needing your help He said I'm mindful Of everything that I'm doing Brings my mental state to ruins I keep doing what I'm doing Now I'm feeling bad Wonder why I feel like that Try to eat some daily bread Every time my pride it makes me wanna Everyday I pushed away the truth Imagine what that it does to you No wonder I can't let go of my past And give it all to you Still so many songs that you'll never hear I've been working on my trash folder for a couple of years Gets depressing trying to build a career Outta something I'm not proud of I thought maybe I could overcome my fears if If I said sorry Could I could I could I move on Without the memories Of who I was I won't forget All of my felonies With time I'll learn to stress without All of the casualties Could you forgive me If I said sorry Sorry didn't mean to cut you off I just really want to move on Getting sick of all my sad songs Threw away so many tracks from this album I can't wait to write from the 3rd person like I'm out of This moment in time When didn't love my life When I lost all my sight When I crossed both of my eyes Dead dreams but they living rent free in my mind Deadly and I'm just paying every price like I wrote this album Sick of being insane Fighting with all my dead dreams Saying that this isn't me Fighting how I feel and all of my hypocrisy Ignoring pain living life so Ignorantly And I couldn't handle all of the pain Carry it around like it's loose change Why do I carry all of these memories Got me feeling lonely Tear me open I can't take it Feeling choked up I'm so sorry That I wouldn't let you notice I wanna be a better me Next song yeah it's bittersweet I wrote and this the end of my apology these songs as my testimony And this my personal account of how I found peace