Emotional Zero

Standing in line just to say my name It's another day like that Where the antisocial python in me squeezes me tight My mouth turns so dry and my face so flat And my eyes start to bulge right out of my skull And it's a good thing for me 'cause I don't see your face And I droop into a puddle that'll burn your skin Scoop me up with a shovel throw me out I'm waste And I'll sit there like the urn that you don't wanna see Like the world's worst fucking conversation piece They're painful to swallow all the truths you ignored But just choke them right down and feel your breathing cease And the ligature marks are your new tattoos The ink you never wanted colored on your thumb Your ears ringing out a chorus of your lies Black spots like obsidian on your tongue Oh I don't know why I don't desire an escape I guess I've drawn the line, committed to being this way I could just talk to you, I could talk a little more Emotional zero, I went ahead and locked the door You cannot see me for who I am Only the version that you really want So many words are left unheard I don't even try The only Holy Ghost is the one that haunts But here you go preaching all your self-righteous thoughts From the mass manufactured pages of that Script Oh woe is me but let me be I'm begging you now I'll just kick my rocks and go to sleep in a ditch And in the tall grass they'll find me and hand me an oar In the sinking ship I struggle and row The Thalidomide flipper became my right hand Taking control while I watch my own show So I burned all my boats and began chopping wood Cut everything off and set up a new life Crossing the river without you dragging me down Making a bed devoid of your constant strife And I don't know why He had to make me this way And I guess I've blurred the lines, erasing my final escape Emotional zero paralyzed down to the core I could just meditate but maybe I'd be too damn bored