Scapegoat

I walked home at an idle speed hoping you'd catch up Am I the monster that you want me to be or is this just love I don't know what I don't know and that's the scariest thing But I know what you don't know and exclusion is how I win And I have grown since then, but have I changed enough Didn't like who I was back then, why'd I expect that from you Can I be your scapegoat, you can be mine too Can I be your scapegoat, we'll head right on through And the mutual blame is the sickest game It's always easier to lose And the price is paid on the very first day I put my trust in you Needed a vice to keep my mind from wondering endlessly Against advice I clung to lies, marooned in the endless sea Stranded here but you're still near the forefront of my brain Subconsciously and frivolously my cortex fills with pain And I have grown since then, but have I changed enough Didn't like who I was back then, why'd I expect that from you Can I be your scapegoat, you can be mine too Can I be your scapegoat, we'll head right on through And the mutual blame is the sickest game It's always easier to lose And the price is paid on the very first day I put my trust in you And I have grown since then, but have I changed enough Didn't like who I was back then, why'd I expect that from you And I don't wear the crown, but the burden remains In the graveyard where sins are found, we suffer all the same Can I be your scapegoat, you can be mine too Can I be your scapegoat, we'll head right on through And the mutual blame is the sickest game It's always easier to lose And the price is paid on the very first day I put my trust in you And the sacrifice is the endless night that precedes the great flood And the price is paid when we walk that hill to stain the alter with blood