Since I Thought About You

It's been awhile since I thought about you But it makes me smile when I do And don't get me wrong I'm not lost without you I just wish I hadn't been so scared You drove without a GPS My directionless self thought us a match Our dollar store date was my kind of vibe The all too rare sober good time Your hand on the wheel, my eyes locked on you County line road in our rearview Sat on the trunk and watched the stars But trepidation kept us apart It's not like we ran out of time Cause maybe we had too much Defenses held firm on the last line Sunk our vessels of trust It's been awhile since I thought about you But it makes me smile when I do And don't get me wrong I'm not lost without you I just wish I hadn't been so scared Semester ended and put us on pause Days became months and miles became walls Communication is not my strength As I grew weak your interest shrank I stepped away inside myself I mailed it in and bid farewell Stitched the wound with apathy Took a pull to fog your memory It's not like we ran out of time Cause maybe we had too much Defenses held firm on the last line Sunk our vessels of trust It's been awhile since I thought about you But it makes me smile when I do And don't get me wrong I'm not lost without you I just wish I hadn't been so scared Of falling in love with every girl I speak to Of letting myself feel vulnerable Of putting someone ahead of my own needs Of losing something I'll never have It's been awhile since I thought about you But it makes me cry when I do It's been awhile since I thought about you Since I thought about you