Bedroom Walls

I wake up I look around me I stay up Four walls surrounding And they know My heart is pounding If they talked They would be shouting Shouting in my head Jumping on my bed Clinging to my blanket Holding on a thread Cause I’m afraid the floors will open up and I’ll fall down Falling for eternity, I’d never hit the ground These four walls know everything about me Abusing their authority, while I’m looking for privacy These four walls love mocking my anxiety Exposing all my flaws just to watch me lay down in defeat If you were my bedroom walls You would be afraid of the choices that I make If you were my bedroom walls You would be ashamed by the pictures that I take If you were my bedroom walls You would see me rage as I scribble on the shades If you were my bedroom walls You would see me pray for the pain to go away If you were my Lover You’d be scared of me, cause I’m an effed up mess with anxiety In a society full of tragedies and I feel the devils hands as he’s dragging me Deeper Into my sheets Pillow on top, getting harder to breathe Fighting for air like I fight for relief Nightmares invading the walls to my dreams Then I wake up With sweat on my head Anger within me starts shaking the bed And these walls around me, they start turning red Cause me and you both know they wish I were dead Oh I need to get out Need to leave now Need to find someone I can’t live without Need to make calls What’s the protocol? I am escaping these bedroom walls These four walls know everything about me Abusing their authority, while I’m looking for privacy These four walls love mocking my anxiety Exposing all my flaws just to watch me lay down in defeat If you were my bedroom walls You would be terrified I would be mortified I wanna take my life Not talking suicide More like take back what’s mine Chains can not keep me tied I will arise Into the sky Breaking the ceiling and feeling this feeling that I can’t recall Feeling at all In the bedroom walls Every day I feel like I fall deeper and deeper in debt to these walls Like I owe them something They know everything about me And they use that against me It’s like they’ll always be there Haunting me No matter where I am