Two Sides of A Memory

Why are you still here in my memory I know you are the enemy and you won't think twice My diaries are lost pages written for you my mistake was Thinking that one day you would pull yourself up, up out of the clouds I know it was foolish, how do you do it Spent most of my days wasting away Wasted months of my casualties, my mind ran away from me You spoke I choke, you made me Plan B So sad how your 'crazy' kept me steady It's not the walk alone that pains me It wasn't love that got away from me One, two, three chances I gave for free Move along you've had your way with me And he says... I've broken you down so many times and it's not right I don't deserve you-I know this much But you do not believe me, think you're calling my bluff, what Even though you might be right, I won't try and fight You pull me through but I will not fight for you, it wouldn't be right A life for another, I'm a million miles from better lets save each other I spoke, you broke, now you're finally So mad, you won't even miss me Now that I walk alone it pains me You'll always be the one who got away from me Slipped out of reach so easy Can we fix this mess I made please He kept calling but she was already gone