i could never change

I was telling you I could never change Now there's poison in my system, yeah, it's running through my veins Now I'm stuck in reminiscence, thinking it was not so bad But my head is filling gaps, that's the cost of looking back But you never really seem to care No, you never really, no, you never really seem to care I never cared for your sake, telling me that I can't change But back then it was first base, now the place I'm at like home plate I'm moving too fast and I crashed out, surface level f*ck a background I would just space when I had doubt, I'd get home feeling like I blacked out (Blacked out, blacked out) My past self wonder what I have now, cause my future's so hard to track now Yeah, I know I'm breathing, but do I really feel alive? (Feel alive, fe-feel alive...) But now they hear me clearly, so I'm asking, could I really die? (Really die, really die,) Could I really die? I was telling you I could never change Now there's poison in my system, yeah, it's running through my veins Now I'm stuck in reminiscence, thinking it was not so bad But my head is filling gaps, that's the cost of looking back You never cared how I felt It's funny saying that to myself But I'm proving myself, yeah Slowly but surely I'm doing this shit, couple tricks in my belt The level we on, I'm improving it, no I can never be stooping it I got some shit I'm pursuing and, lately I'm just in a rut Lately they think I ain't tough, lately I'm working I can't get it perfect, I can't do enough And if you saw this shit through my eyes Worried about my future like I'm looking at the timeline It never really mattered by the time I reached the end And I'm wasting all my days thinking about how they were spent I was telling you I could never change Now there's poison in my system, yeah, it's burning through my veins Now I'm sucking reminiscences, thinking it was not so bad But my head's spinning, guess that's the cost of looking back Telling you I'll never change I was telling you I could never change I was telling you I could never change Now there's poison in my system, yeah, it's running through my veins Now I'm stuck in reminiscence, thinking it was not so bad But my head is filling gaps, that's the cost of looking back I was telling you I could never change Now there's poison in my system, yeah, it's running through my veins Now I'm stuck in reminiscence, thinking it was not so bad But my head is filling gaps, that's the cost of looking back Telling you I'll never change