Then & Now

God i been selfish ik & i admit it You gave me all these chances i did nothing with it Focused on temporary happinesses & women But sometimes It takes the wrongs turns to make the right decision But i'm better so i guess it was part of your plan If i could go back i'd probably do all it again Cause we don't live in regret dawg we live & learn You get all praise , i'm living a life i ain't earn Pockets are getting fatter Women are getting badder Hatters are getting louder I'm starting to hear they chatter But i block it out Typa shit that make chris pull his rocket out Remember recording on a free trail at my mommas house Set up in her room as she slept on the couch She knew i would make it it was a fact to her So imma go and imma get it bring it back to her And you know once we get it getting back to work Cause i got family to feed Big ass family tree If you got blood in your veins dawg you family to me F*ck all that family beef Yea making the moneys cool but i'm trynna make peace I said im trynna make peace Uh true joy & all of that other noise The kids are well feed the baby play with her toys Kiss your parents on the head one day you gon' miss their voice Living life how i wanna Doing it with a poise As happy as i can be cause doing it was my choice A lot of you not gone like me when it's all said & done If i ain't a loser to some I know ain't really won I could kill off every fake I know i don't need a gun If i don't do this shit myself i don't know who'd get it done Only took a few times at the club to realize i don't like it But i go Cause i gotta let my people see they nigga And keep these niggas aware of who that nigga For real Who really got it like me The flow is sweet as ice tea Been doin this since i was 9 y'all think i start at 19 Young vetty My nigga i was born ready Shawty i can't rock steady Been busy eating spaghetti Italian girls are my weakness told my ex stop acting petty People look for a reason to lash out I got your mascara They thought tripterror inc was my last era Yea look at me now i'm shining brighter than ever And i just keep getting better Can't be ahead if it's severed I been the head not the tail Look in my eyes you can tell The vision was given at a young age Nigga i am un-phased I was destined to bring change From west end the king came This just end now i reign Four dollars & a retweet got us king of diamonds monday Now a message & a retweet get the garden on a sunday Let'em preeeach Product of the streets Fighting on my knees for like 52 weeks each year praying for release I'm my only enemy cause they can't injury me unless i let'em My people told me do not ever sweat'em Theses people wouldn't listen to a word you say unless i said'em That's how hard they ridin' That's how good i got it I know God gon' guide me Weight of the world on me I know he gon' spot me Yea i know he gon' spot me Built habit of reminiscing Blorifying bad decisions Put way too much into women Compromising my religion A habit of asking for forgiveness instead for permission I'm doing my best to make a change lord'll be my witness It really got me when My dad said his higher purpose is me He got the world on his back he said he hand me the keys What so special about me Don't think i'm fit for the ring What did I do to deserve it I ain't pick to be king Uh They said it's out of reach I said it's not enough I'm not one to turn around just cause the road is tough See i gun good under pressure Y'all could never stop me Imma cut from a fabric that y'all could never copy I gotta do this they expecting me to come thru Counting on me i won't let'em down i ain't the 1 2 Oh God give me the strength I give you the glory I surrender everything so you can keep writing my story Yea Growing up i was the rich kid on the block But they never saw behind close doors & they ain't think to knock Just a boy without a ladder reaching for the top But if i said that i'm gon' have it believe that's what i got Yea Everything i am is what's been built up thru the years Blood sweat & tears Facing my fears I lost some peers Just to gain the worlds ears Fighting for my vision sometimes it got a little gory But i got a lifetime to tell y'all the rest of the story