Trauma

I locked my heart away After everything I'd been through I just couldn't take Any more pain And now I'm to blame For burying my issues Instead of facing the reasons that I'd changed So now I've been working on who I'll become I've had so many guards up that must come undone And I hope you're not tired of waiting I wanna get to the point Where I don't need saving 'Cause I don't wanna say too much or give too much away Don't wanna make you carry burdens you were never meant to face Don't wanna make you feel like it's your fault When I feel down at the bottom Before I meet you, love you I need to deal with my trauma I need to deal with my trauma I've never known what it's like to have love after chaos I'm starting with me, and I'm still feeling lost I'm trying to find you But I must remind you: A part of me is dying And I don't wanna say too much or give too much away Don't wanna make you carry burdens you were never meant to face Don't wanna make you feel like it's your fault When I feel down at the bottom Before I meet you, love you I need to deal with my trauma 'Cause after all I'd been through I had to walk myself through Hell And who am I to put that on anybody but myself I took some steps, I'm healing much Faster than I'd hoped I just wanna let this go I just wanna let this go 'Cause I don't wanna say too much or give too much away Don't wanna make you carry burdens that were never yours to face I need to deal with my