What I Wanted

Tell me something I don't know You told me it would get easier But I've done everything I could've dreamed of And I'm still lost Check my phone and get a text From a friend I thought was out of my life I guess it's nice to see your voice But I miss the days when you would Call me Why am I always reaching out first it seems Do I not matter to you as much as you do to me? It's like you're glad that I didn't stay Like you're glad that we are 1000 miles away Empty walls and busy streets This is not the world that I grew up in I kinda miss the smell of home But I told you this was what I wanted These thoughts consume me This is not the life that I am used to living And this air is not the air that I am used to breathing I need someone to tell me where I'm going Going now Why am I always reaching out first it seems Do I not matter to you as much as you do to me? It's like you're glad that I didn't stay Like you're glad that we are 1000 miles away