do not kill yourself

Do not kill yourself Instead, drive around the neighborhood Instead, end up sitting in a random parking lot Instead, listen to Alex G in your car Instead, wind up visiting your old high school parking lot even though you swore you'd never go back there Instead, do everything you can to avoid going home to mom Instead, do everything you can Instead, do everything you can Instead, do everything you can to avoid thinking about how absolutely nothing is waiting for you there Whatever you do Don't think about how you were junior year of high school Don't think about your best friend that won't talk to you anymore Don't think about how her face changed when she laughed at something you said And don't think about the empty tone of her voice the last few times she spoke to you But don't forget about it either You may never know a friendship like that again There are other things you'll allow yourself to forget about over time Like how the glass mom threw on the floor jumped and cut your arm And the first time you thought you'd try it out, give it a go yourself