Pursuit of Excellence

More so than often I weep when I sleep cause my hopes in disguise Couldn't even tell you what it's costing The voice in my dream screams "Open your eyes" I'm ashamed that I'm lost in A place full of nothing but the pain that Is haunting It's exhausting a part of me, pardon me Its partially hard to see with a heart of Eve Shedding light upon it dawn to me it's honestly dishonoring Here's a little food for thought, a fool for love? Truth or not, it's who you love Move or stop, do or done? Do or die where you reside Usually, they using me, abusing these Thoughts of mine that prove to see what used to be the light in you and I Used to wonder why? but I know how Conversations never hold now Holding on to the good times They gotta taste for thoughts, but they never understood mine Stuck in a ballad A battle weighting the problems and finding a balance A rose that rose from the granite Soon as I had it I lost it A grasp that took it for granted And as times goes on I have to understand that I don't have to fight these things alone anymore And in doing so, I hope to find peace I wander in a wonderland where mourning ends Even then, feel unfortunate Closed doors never opening Wanna overdose on opium but cope with it The culprit is that hope exist Off a sip of gin Imma fit for sin Mama grip an end of a rosary supposedly for shadows laying over me We oversee the issues overseas Noticing the threat, they'll notice me City of Broken mirrors, no one hopes to hear us Clear there's a blur, we don't know of ease Doves that fly in darkness Only love can leave you heartless Always question where your heart is Our hardest soulful thoughts are the farthest And Broken promises from those anonymous That hold some prominence lie As deceiving equals to what seems too evil The peace is see through from I You may never pray to or pray for the same Or believes there's no name for superior I just hope when you listen The words you hear through your ears are simply taken serious To find peace within myself More significantly for what was and What is and where I am today