i have never been hurt like this

I've dreamt of you every night Sleeping while you twist the knife I close my eyes and I see my life But you're there A quiet house, a hand in the snow A love that I will never know Two lost souls who were lost no more Now I'm gone I'm too tired to ball my fist I have never been hurt like this There's no rage, it's a sobering ache For what was No amount of hopes and prayers Can bring me back to your front porch stairs Winter nights, a secret fight And I lost