So Heavy

Am I a fool? Has my hope been in vain? I planted the seed of a shading tree, but I'm standing in the rain Am I fool? How can it be? I keep picking the scab of an old wound, just to watch it bleed It's just so heavy, too heavy to hold I watch my cup fill up with doubt I keep drinking it up, you keep pouring it out You push so hard and I push back Before I even turned around your sights, set, aimed and ready to attack And it's so heavy to hold, too heavy to hold It's so heavy to hold, too heavy to hold I can't catch up, there is not enough time We are so disconnected, discontented, disappointed cause we lack connection with each other and the Earth Ignorantly thinking this is how it works Our lives have no meaning, but to feed the machine Repelling sadness and pain with the swipe of screen People closing their minds sewing the third eye shut Measure worth with money and things that have not And it's just so heavy, too heavy to hold It's just so heavy, too heavy to hold Am I a fool? Has my hope been in vain?