i'm sorry - voice memo

I'm kinda Always feeling like this I'm hoping Wishing for eternal bliss But instead of feeling whole People think I'm cold And so there is a hole in me Let me clear my name and say I've just never been that brave To go out of my way and speak I'm sorry for the times I messed up on my lines And forgot what to say I get nervous all the time I'd rather be inside And hide away I can't do small talk I'm not some big shot But I'll be okay I'm lonely Almost solely in a crowd I get weary People scare me when they're loud If I put myself out there And no one seems to care That's nothing new to me I'm the type that doesn't say When I am feeling pain So I'm not a liability I'm sorry for the times I messed up on my lines And forgot what to say I get nervous all the time I'd rather be inside And hide away I can't do small talk I'm not some big shot But I'll be okay This is not a pity party Don't you ever think about me I'm just tryna get this off my chest I'm saying how I've felt before I know all of this is a bore I think it holds some value, nonetheless I'm sorry for the times I messed up on my lines And forgot what to say I get nervous all the time I'd rather be inside And hide away I can't do small talk I'm not some big shot But I'll be okay