Renunciation

Just one more time and I swear I'll be fine" "Need one last hit and then I promise I'll move in with my life" "It's just to ease my stress" "It's just to clear my head" I'm tired of hearing your shit Your excuses make me sick You're flaking out and failing now I put my neck out for you Only to find that you don't mind Living with substance abuse I tried to help, gave you a shot Over and over again But you sit in your filth And wait for this to end You don't want to feel, You don't want to see You don't want to man up and face reality I'm tired of that mindset, I want you to be free I want you to think for yourself and to think clearly In this house with walls so paper thin No one ever seems to care or to listen F*ck So f*ck me for trying to help you find peace of mind Outside of these substances in which you justify In using and abusing, testing limits, so amusing Numbing yourself to forget everything You're flaking out and failing now I put my neck out for you Only to find that you don't mind Living with substance abuse I tried to help, gave you a shot Over and over again But you sit in your filth And wait for this to end You have to find yourself before you find your God So go and find yourself before you're too far gone And when you fall, you feel so helpless So ashamed of what you've become This isn't a sign of weakness But what it takes to face your demons Someday, when you wake up This will become so clear And when it finally does Just know I'll be right here In this house with walls so paper thin No one ever seems to care or to listen When everyone you know is down with their demons You can't hate them if you're one of them too You have to find yourself before you find your God So go and find yourself before you're too far gone You have to find yourself before you find your God So go and find yourself before you're too far gone